Day 50...& When Your Only 1/2 Way Done Your Neither Done or Done.

It's pretty bad when you don't know if your coming or going somedays.  I have been exhausted, wanting to sneak in a nap whenever possible. I missed the treadmill workout yesterday, but I did stay within my food points for the day.  I definately feel a war going on emotionally.  My negative side is telling me this is too much work and I am not making good progress. While my positive side reminds me that I am cooking at home almost completely and I don't buy processed food except for cereal.  The centered and focused me is giving it all to God and praying, "Help me stay focused on Your opinion of me".

Hebrew 12:4-11 (Message Bible)

4-11  In this all-out match against sin, others have suffered far worse than you, to say nothing of what Jesus went through—all that bloodshed! So don't feel sorry for yourselves. Or have you forgotten how good parents treat children, and that God regards you as his children?

My dear child, don't shrug off God's discipline,

but don't be crushed by it either.

It's the child he loves that he disciplines;

the child he embraces, he also corrects.

God is educating you; that's why you must never drop out. He's treating you as dear children. This trouble you're in isn't punishment; it's training, the normal experience of children. Only irresponsible parents leave children to fend for themselves. Would you prefer an irresponsible God? We respect our own parents for training and not spoiling us, so why not embrace God's training so we can truly live? While we were children, our parents did what seemed best to them. But God is doing what is best for us, training us to live God's holy best. At the time, discipline isn't much fun. It always feels like it's going against the grain. Later, of course, it pays off handsomely, for it's the well-trained who find themselves mature in their relationship with God.

Thank you God for your words of encouragement, when I am feeling the pain of the discipline, You remind me it is for my good because I am Your child that You care for enough to discipline. 

Daily Food Journal

(page taken from Weight Watchers journal)