Day 346.......Distraction

The best lesson I have learned is from disciplining my 2 year old.  In disciplining her I tried the following:  reasoning, protesting, spanking, time out, crying, throwing my own fit, ignoring her; the ONLY thing that is successful with my 2 year is DISTRACTION, getting her mind off the thing that is causing the problem and getting her to think about something else.
I believe that is what God is teaching me to do. I was worried about losing weight, so He occupied my mind with MOVING my family (great distraction).  I was worried about finances, God occupied my mind with WORKING.  Now I get it; whenever my thinking (worry) is polluting my mind, I find a distraction!

2 Corinthians 10:5 (The Message)

3-6   The world is unprincipled. It's dog-eat-dog out there! The world doesn't fight fair. But we don't live or fight our battles that way—never have and never will. The tools of our trade aren't for marketing or manipulation, but they are for demolishing that entire massively corrupt culture. We use our powerful God-tools for smashing warped philosophies, tearing down barriers erected against the truth of God, fitting every loose thought and emotion and impulse into the structure of life shaped by Christ. Our tools are ready at hand for clearing the ground of every obstruction and building lives of obedience into maturity.

(my own emphasis added)

Day 345........20 more days!

This year has been the CRAZIEST year.  It has been a time of letting go and letting GOD.  Developing a personal relationship with Christ needs a disclosure, fine print that for me would read as follows:

do not attempt  unless you are prepared for BATTLE, full amour required at all times, if at any time you do not apply the FULL amour you will get knocked down; However, Jesus is enough, His Grace is sufficient, be cofident and wait for the still small voice that appears as a moth.  Do not get shaken, take every thought and make it reflect God's best.  Do Not Do anything under stress when emotions run high, WAIT on the Lord.  Imitate a eagle and fly over the storm and let the winds guide you to a safe landing.  Never Give Up, Jesus is our ROCK, REDEEMER, STONG TOWER, DELIVERER, PROVIDER and FRIEND.  GO BOLDLY to the throne and never stop BELIEVING!!!!!

During these last 20 days, I am believing for great things and new beginning that will be the result of this HUGE step of faith for my family.  

We made an offer on a house and I am waiting the results......This house means country living, land, aquiet, simple life, a christain school, closer to our provision (Jobs), and closer to Lake Michigan.  It also means Good-Bye to a life that I love in Kalamazoo.  I have to believe that God will provide the right church and the right friends for my family. I have the BEST church and AMAZING friends in Kalamazoo.  This is bitter/sweet.

Day 282......Nevertheless

Luke 5:5 (King James Version)

5  And Simon answering said unto him, Master, we have toiled all the night, and have taken nothing: nevertheless at thy word I will let down the net.

Just like Simon, wanting to give up before the task is complete, I feel like giving up on my blog; nevertheless I know that God put it in my heart to complete so I will stick with it until it's time.

These last 11 months have been riddled with life changing events and awkward circumstances to test my emotional stability.  I am happy to report that I am learning to rise above my circumstances.  My weight will no longer be the barometer for how I handle my emotions. 

The stuggle now is to maintain the 25lb loss that I achieved and to push through to loss another 25lbs.  I am very determined. 

I am still pursuing a healthier lifestyle; organic meat, safer beauty products, NO fast food, NO sweetner and the list is a work in progress.  My hope for my family is to live on a hobby farm with chickens and possibly a goat, and of course a vegtable garden. I am so excited about the possibility to raise my girls in a self sustaining environment that encourages healthy living.

God is so good, and He loves us to pursue our destiny and purpose, so If God wills it; it will happen!

Day 241......Eyes up

It is easy to lose sight of what God is doing, by looking at circumstances with a negative and complaining attitude.   Don't allow the devil to take away the postive that only God can show you.  Keep your eyes up.  Peter stepped out of the boat in faith and walked on water, but when he took his eyes off of Jesus he began to sink.  While sharing my facts, I have to let God fill in the unknowns, I just have to stay positive.  Eyes on Him and NO complaints!

Engage Maverick!

I would say I am from the "Top Gun" generation, "Top Gun" as in the movie with Tom Cruise.  My lifes recent and present circumstances remind me of the time when the lead character, Maverick in the movie, is facing hardships and is unable to get back into the game of life. While in a "dog fight" (fighter planes exchanging into battle) Mavericks wing man pleads with him to engage in the battle, not to pull away in fear and doubt.  Well, I relate to this scene and I am here to ENGAGE in the battle.  No more fear No more doubt, I am ready to get out of my circumstances, mentally, and move forward. 

My family has moved out of our home and have taken indefinate residency in my parents home.  This is not the outcome that I was intenting; however the silver lining is that my family is happy and very comfortable. Sometimes we have to let go of our intentions and weigh out the actual situation.  With my current circumstanes properly weighed out I am ready to move forward and not look back. Since the last time I blogged, I have been doing well on my weight meaning I am hovering at +/- 5 pounds, but that is not good enough.  I am getting back to my disipline and getting out of this holding pattern.  I am Maverick engaging in the dog fight.

My prayer yesterday was, "God, what now"  and I begged Him to give me a scripture.  I opened the Bible to Isaiah 1: 16-17

16 Wash yourselves, make yourselves clean; put away the evil of your doings from before My eyes! Cease to do evil,

17 Learn to do right! Seek justice, relieve the oppressed, and correct the oppressor. Defend the fatherless, plead for the widow.

I though, "Okay, I will focus on that".  I realize that God knows my confusion and knows my heart.  He desires me to do good in the storms of life, take my eyes off the negative, and stay focused on Him.  I understand and I am so ready to be transformed in my mind.  Transformed to not think on the things that I don't understand, but to stay focused on the moment and make the moment count for something to my greater good ie. staying health, losing weight, spending time with my family, and doing the right thing.  The scripture also gives a promise, I love those, it continues to say.......

Isaiah 1: 19

19 If you are willing and obedient, you shall eat the good of the land;

 

and I like that!

Day 213......I Am Greatly Shaken

What happens when you forget all the things you are suppose to know.  Like preparing for a test for, well 213 days and then failing the test on exam day.  That is the day I had!  Total doubt and frustration enveloped me, I cryed and questioned my beliefs, and had Kentucky Fried Chicken....it was a bad day.  Now I am realizing that once again my emotions reared her ugly head and destroyed my perfectly wonderful spring day.  Oh I am a totally sucker.  I feel stupid! 

The good news,  I am not afaid to admit it and move forward.  I am reminded of a verse ( of course, another verse to my rescue)

 Proverbs 3:5-6 (Amplified Bible)

5  Lean on, trust in, and be confident in the Lord with all your heart and mind and do not rely on your own insight or understanding.

6  In all your ways know, recognize, and acknowledge Him, and He will direct and make straight and plain your paths.

I have lost 2 followers, since I started my blog.  I am sad about it; however this is me the real me and I can't be anything else.  This is my stuggle and my victory!

Day .....Somewhere in the middle

I am so excited to share with you how amazing God is.  I am still in the mist of the unknown, and still curious when God is going to follow through on this leap of  faith. So why am I excited!  It is a verse that God has brought to life for me and it is

Psalm 62:1-7 (Amplified Bible)

1  FOR GOD alone my soul waits in silence; from Him comes my salvation.

2 He only is my Rock and my Salvation, my Defense and my Fortress, I shall not be greatly moved.

3 How long will you set upon a man that you may slay him, all of you, like a leaning wall, like a tottering fence?

4 They only consult to cast him down from his height [to dishonor him]; they delight in lies. They bless with their mouths, but they curse inwardly. Selah [pause, and calmly think of that]!

5 My soul, wait only upon God and silently submit to Him; for my hope and expectation are from Him.

6 He only is my Rock and my Salvation; He is my Defense and my Fortress, I shall not be moved.

7 With God rests my salvation and my glory; He is my Rock of unyielding strength and impenetrable hardness, and my refuge is in God!

The author of this scripture is declaring that he will not be greatly moved by his current circumstances .....then after more torment......he declares he shall not be moved at all.  I have lived this, the last few months with every crazy emotional mountain, I hestitantly declared "I will not be greatly moved" and God has been my rock and has delivered me out of the momentary mountain of crazy just in the nick of time.  So now even though my circumstances are still crazy and I need God daily to be my rock and defender, I declare," I will not be moved at all". I am excited to tell you that renewed strength does exist and God does wait on us to see where our loyalty lies, then just in the nick of time, we are given renewed strength and the preserverance needed to press on in faith.  It has been a major power struggle for me to let go and allow God to be in the driver seat, but as I declare each day that I will not be moved, My flesh (old me) gets worn out and I feel totally capable to enjoy my day and not get stirred up about anything.  The bonus is that I was a emotional eater, so God has taken me on this journey to deliver me from my greatly moving emotions.  I feel in control of my eating, it is a discipline of eating when hungry and not eating to fill a emotional void..  I am losing weight and loving the feeling of being able to control myself.  Selah!